Captain's Log: Day 25

Ahoyhoy!
Today, I will share with you my innermost secret. What is it? says you. Arrgh! Tis worth more than gold! says I. Well... here it is! my innermost secret is.... I AM a simple pirate, leading a simple life, on my simple ship, occasionally enjoying simply delicious Lindt Chocolates.

I do not want gold, I do not want fame, I'm a simple minded person, though you may think, "what a shame". It rhymes!

Ok honestly now, I am a simple minded person. Confusing questions, events, decisions will drive me to tears. I'm one of those people that will keep driving straight because turning left/right is much too complicated for my little mind. I can be mildly entertained by writing a blog about my incredibly simple mind, and being able to complete an easy Sudoku all by myself brings me great joy and excitement. (Turns out Sudoku is not only a puzzle game, but also a disease...eeewy!) I can be easily impressed, and if someone asks, "what are you thinking about right now?" if I answer, "nothing," it doesn't mean, "I'm thinking about something that greatly bothers me and i don't feel like sharing with you at this moment, maybe unless if you keep nagging me about it then i will have to tell you just to shut you up, or that i have proven that i've caught your attention". If i answer, "nothing" it actually most of the time means.... well nothing. There are times when my mind is completely blank. Actually this is pretty often, now that i think about it... hmmm... well anyway. I show lots of interest and enthusiasm to almost everything, I tend not to ponder too much about things that upsets me, in fact, i tend to forget them pretty easily, it doesn't take much to make me happy, I usually don't ask for comforting words when i'm upset, all I want is a comforting hug, and sometimes just that can bring my good spirits back! Is this a good thing? Not necessarily. Especially when it comes to people-people relationships. Sometimes, getting to know or understanding a person can be very difficult. People are confusing creatures. What they say may not necessarily reflect what they think, and what they think may not be exactly what they feel. And then of course, there are those words that go unsaid... which makes communication just that much more confusing. Only if everything could be put into words...

And of course there are questions that need answers to, such as, "what am I going to do with my life?" or "what am I going to apply for in university?" maybe, "should I go to sleep now? or should I study more?" and of course the most important question of the day, "should I have one more Lindt chocolate? Or is three enough?" All such questions confuses me like crazy. And as simple as I claim to be, I also have to deal with such questions, and many more. Each of these questions usually leads to a decision that has to be made. We make decisions and we deal with the consequences. And it is these consequences that makes it so hard to lead a simple life. Especially when consequences do not concern only myself, but other people as well. Why does life have to be so confusing? I just want to be a simple pirate sailing on my simple ship, enjoying simply delicious Lindt Chocolates.